I hope that this story isn't getting old or uninteresting for people. If it is, please let me know. I won't be insulted :)

Since the first time that I was asked, by the father of the twin boys who I very much admire, to attend their church, the father and I have gotten together a number of times. We have become friends, and when we meet we don't just talk about religion, but also about work and life in general. Certainly, it is the boys who are providing the carrot to bring me over to the house when I don't feel like going, but I will say that I would probably go most of the time anyway because I do enjoy the company of the parents.

I've found the discussions about God, the Bible and Jesus to be fascinating. Through talking about it, I realize that I am actually a very spiritual person and that I have alot of feelings about God. I've never really thought about any of it until now. I told the dad how grateful I am for him taking his time with me, but he wouldn't hear of it. He said that seeing me explore my faith has renewed his own faith. He also agreed that we enjoy each other's company and the talks about philosophy and religion. So, we decided to make a committment to study the bible together this spring. I figured that I had nothing to lose. At least I would gain a friend and discuss something that is interesting to talk about. At best....who knows. He also lent me a bible to read and I will start to read it, though I am still skeptical about what I will find.

Because I have always wanted to find God, but have been to hard faced towards the world and somewhat abandoned spiritually by my own religion, I feel like I have alot to gain. I also believe that, through learning about God, I can become a better person. God, if he really does exist, is certainly giving me every incentive in the world to keep doing this. After talking religion with the dad, I sat with one of the twins and helped him do his fifth grade homework. How someone so physically beautiful to me could be playing a hand in my spiritual life seemingly could only be an act of God :)

Thanks for listening in and if you have questions, don't hold back. I've found in this whole process that asking questions, and arguing different points of view is as valuable as learning from a book.

You are not alone.

Ben