I think it is at least possible to strengthen or weaken one's urges through "self-programming" or autosuggestions (self-hypnosis) or programming through societal pressure. For instance, I know somebody who lives very healthy - he says things that are healthy just taste good for him. Health is his prime concern, so the fact a food is "healthy" is enough to "trick" him into finding it tasty (he admitted that). Some people in conservative Christian families are homophobes - same effect. With me, there was the contrary effect. As a young man, I felt a slight attraction towards teenboys. I wanted to know more and came across... - Platon (Symposion, Phaidros) - Ernest Borneman (lexicon of love) Digging deeper there came up - Hafis (love poems) - amitiés particulaires (Peyrefitte) - Gundel Koch-Harnack: "Boylove and animal presents in ancient Greece" - H. Patzer: "the Greek paiderastia" and so forth. You guess it - I was *fascinated*, for I had read books in favor, or partly in favor of boylove and it's cultural background. I started to feel proud, even "chosen" to be a TBL or ephebophile. I was ignorant of the other side and it came for me as a mild shock that - God, how is this possible! - there are people who OBJECT to boylove! |