The truth will certainly make you a fanatic. It happened to me, and many others I know. Someone may say "You're a freak!" and I'll think "yep! you got it! I'm a Jesus Freak!" I don't know if that relates at all, but it came to mind. In all seriousness, I'll second the statement that you're not alone. I often feel as if I've made the wrong decision in becoming a Christian, or in coming out to people, or whatever. What have I done? I've thrown away from everything I know, everything I understand, so that I can dedicate my life to an ideal that no man who ever lived could comprehend. I have only pieces of evidence and a funny feeling in my chest, and for that I've given up my life. Crazy? hell ya. Worth it? no doubt. God rocks. No matter how hard I try to deny it, no matter how often I forget, no matter how crazy it seems, I always seem to end up back at that thought... -- ken |