My poor friend: Oh how your pain if felt. I have been in your position, about six months ago. I won't retell my story, but I will give you advie that will bring closure to your boylve difficulites, and your pseudo-athesism, when you pray say to God the impossible, ask God for the impossible and He will respond. Pray what needs to be said, He will give it to you. If you must say "God my love for boys is preventing my love for you," and he will solve it. I don't know how, and I am not saying He will send the cutest 10 year old into your life, but I amj saying He will conquer your fears. I know this all sounds very banal, but just offer that prayer. Athesism is a step toward abandonment to God. God Speed David |