I thought I was alone.

Hi, Bucky! Welcome to the board. I am engaged to be married, and I fairly recently told my fiancée about my attraction to boys. You're right, I had been keeping the truth from her for three years to spare her the pain, but things were much easier after I told her. Not at first, but after she came to understand what I was saying and got past initial impressions/stereotypes I felt that she understands me much better. It is also wonderful to have someone I can talk to about this facet of my life who is there in the flesh and is not just online. Someone who I can hug and completely trust with my secret. Like you, I have never had any "incidents" in my past with boys, and I don't think I could ever be sexual with a boy. I am very much against that. I love my fiancée very much, and I am so grateful that she was able to understand and accept this side of me. I hope you post more in the future or feel free to e-mail me if you want a private discussion. ChoirBoy