I'm now in my 50's. Was subject to incest as a kid from my older brother. Went to fundamentalist Christian camp as a boy and was sexed like crazy by male counselors and boys for years. Premarital male/female sex was condemned as a sin all the time, but no one mentioned male/male, or ages. You "just knew" you didn't talk about it. Boy, talk about musical beds when the lights went out! Even in the staff cabin when I worked there. So I got involved with boys as an adult. Loved and cared for them. Many remained friends over the years as they outgrew the relationship. Now I find some troubled in their 30's, and it hurts me so that I may be the cause of that hurt. I have been suicidal. I know what contemporary thought is on the subject. I don't know whether that is what is causing problems. Just because we are allowed to? Everyone likes to blame. Obviates responsiblity. Anyone have relationships w boys now in their 30's who are emotionally healthy and relatively "well adjusted"? And any other info i would appreciate. |