apart from God
Submitted by Derek on December 12 2000 02:00:59
In reply to Hell? submitted by once a boy on December 07 2000 16:11:38
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Hmm. Once, an infantile Christian, I was praying, and wondering what I had really gained in becoming a Christian. I guess I was tossing around the idea of "going back" to the carefree life I had before I knew God, because, quite suddenly, I felt the Holy Spirit leave my body. I can only assume that's what I felt (those of you who are born again may know what I'm talking about). It was not at all unlike what I've heard psychologically depressed or bi-polar people describe as falling through a void, with nothing to grab on to. When the Spirit left me, I was utterly empty, I had nothing. At least it seemed that way. In an instant I was reminded of what God had given to me (you don't know what you're missing until it's gone, eh?), and within half a moment prayed "oh God, no! I didn't mean it! Please come back! oh God oh God!" He took his time, waiting just long enough for me to contemplate the true gift that he was bestowing upon me. It's nothing I deserve, the peace that God gives me. God gave it to me out of his own choice. I'll never forget that. -- Derek |
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