How much do you miss him?
Submitted by Huck Finn on January 04 2001 00:18:01
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As a camp counselor and teacher in training, I've met so many kids. And I tend to love every child I meet in one way or another. But sometimes there are those that you just miss more than anything. I've met millions of boys probalby. And I've gotten to know over a thousand quite well. Some have told me their darkest secrets while others have just shared movies and snow fights with me. Some have come to know Christ because of me. Perhaps one or two hate religion because of me. But I've effected so many lives. The Lord has blessed me with seeing what my life has done for so many. I'm sure many of you feel the same as me. And even if you don't I'm sure you've found that one boy. Past or present... That one boy that you love so much! One that is beyond description. One that was brought to you by God. One that you could feel that instant connection. And I'm not talking about an instant friendship or instant comradity. I'm talking about an instant bond. Stronger than any instiant bond glue. Stronger than love at first sight. Stronger than even love! There's a boy I met in July of 1999. His name is Mark. I saw him interact with some other boys at camp and I thought to myself, this kid is really cool. He had a very noticable smile. He had a very presence about him. You'd look at him and you'd just want to talk with him. His voice was gentle and calm. Yet when he spoke, you'd feel as if you need to listen to him. His confidence in himself brought out a sense of strongness but not of egocentricism. A very humble feeling. His humility brought upon humility on yourself. His Joy brought about joy in your heart. His joy came from Christ. He was actually the boy who I asked one time, "Do you ever talk to your friends about Jesus?" He replied to me, "I love talking to my friends about Christ! I've helped 8 of my friends come to know Christ. The only problem is that now I'm running out of friends. So I'm going to have to start witnessing to people I don't know." This is when he was 12. He's 13 now. And I saw him again. I saw him on New Years at his church. I visited him. And he went through the trials of puberty. He looks so young. Yet, he's starting to fill out. His voice is lower. Yet it's still as gentle if not more so. I would LOVE to have him read the Holy Word to me. And his presence and greatfulness to see me was so wonderful. I've never met a boy who I wanted to spend time with! And he and I have spent so much time together. Even though we've only had 8 days of our lives together! He's the only boy who knows I'm a boy lover. Yet he loves me even more because of my determination to serve Christ. I got him a book called "Jesus Freaks" by DC Talk and The Voice of the Martyrs. It's truly an amazing book. When I saw it late in 1999, I thought, I NEED to get this for my friend Mark. And finally in the Christmas of 2000. He was so excited. He said he couldn't wait to read it. I thought of him as I read my copy a year earlier. Tears came to my eyes as I read about the men and women who put their life on the line for Christ. And I cried even more when I thought about this boy who has chosen not to die for Christ but to LIVE for Christ. I remember the day I talked with him for 4 hours when we were supposed to be at a function. I looked him straight in the eyes and I said, "Mark, I love you! And from the moment I met you, I knew you were something special. I know that you are going to change the world someday! I can see it in your eyes! Whether you make one life different or one million, you will change the world. You already changed me. Thank you." And he said to me after I told him about my struggles with homosexuality, he said to me, "I love you Huck. And when I'm at home and I think I can't do anything, I'm going to think about you and how you trusted in God." If there were ANYONE I could pick as my pastor, Mark would be it. This 13 year old is one of the most amazing boys I've ever met. And I love him... I miss him so much! I made him vow that we would see each other and just talk before the school year is over. I'll drop anything and EVERYTHING just to go see him. I'm so afraid he will fall and forget about his faith like I did in High School. But I must pray for him and pray that God will keep him. I miss him terribly! Does anyone else know what it's like to have such a great encouragment through a boy? I mean I know that a lot of us see boys and thank God for them... but how many of you feel the presence of the Holy Spirit so much when you see a boy? I've never met someone like Mark... and I don't think I ever will! Pray for us. I thank God for him so much. And I pray that God will let us be together for many years to come. God Bless you and thanks for listening. Huck |
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