Thanks for the welcome. Interesting thought about Satan perverting a good, Holy Spirit driven desire. I agree with you that my care for boys does come from God. As I mentioned, and as many observe here, there are many thigs about our attraction for boys that is beneficial to the boys. I certainly believe that in my relationship with boys. Since I have never engaged in a sexual relationship with a boy (and by God's grace, never will) I beleive that by and large, my attraction for boys, has been positive in the lives of the boys I relate to. But I still struggle with the rest of it. I still struggle that my thought life is not appropriate and God honoring. I still realize that Satan has a grip on me there. I beleive that God's grace is sufficient to cover my sin, but I still struggle with the sin. I beleive that I always will. Thanks for your observations. Grace and Peace, Piemur |