Very revealing. Even when I was raped at 15, there was a part of me that knew it was coming, looked forward to it, and actually enjoyed it? WHY? Cause at least someone was paying attention to me. Someone was touching me when my parents never would. Someone was assaulting my deepest "self" and I got off on it? Now, I am so sorry that children I knew may have experienced the very same thing, and often wonder how they are making out in life, hoping to deal with the very same "emotional pains" I have had to go through. Interesting how often we justify..in order to please our inner self, but can never reall and truly see situations from the "other" perspective. But with Christ, all things are possible, and I am so much more empathetic tha I was at 15....because I had to be in order to come to grips with myself. Life is funny sometimes, huh? Gideon |