I find it interesting, again, that people percieve my "anger". But that is to be expected I guess. We often ascribe certain emotions to others in order to legitimize our own perspectives. It is a great way to place a "distance" between people. My brother does it all the time. He has a bad self-image and feels that others see him the same way. That way, no matter how one tries to honestly help, he sees it as an attack, gets a bit paranoid, and does the attacking before another does much "percieved" harm, or intrusion into his "inner sanctum" of self pity. It is very classical Psychology 101. It just takes time and patience to overcome. Something I have plenty of. After all, as I mentioned before, even though I can correct mis-perception, in the long run it does not matter to me since I only have to answer for myself. When a baby is hungry and it's cheek is stroked, it turns it's head and begins the motions to receive food. An arrogant child will turn a tantrum and lock himself in his/her room refusing to receive sustenance and blame the world for it's lack of understanding. It keeps the challenge away, and allows us to wallow in this self same pity and self-love. It the long run, expressions of love toward a child are based on either his best interests or our own needs. Love is a commandment, not a self-justifying emotion. But then we have a life time to figure that out. In dying to myself and alive to Christ, I just acknowledged that sooner than most. It is not a competition, for we are not "justified by works". It is just a fact. Whether anyone can percieve that or not, I could care less. I have more important things and people to attend to. And most are those children "inside" who truly see their own needs and turn their heads to receive their daily bread...from whatever direction it comes. I can truly respect people who seek to know themselves, and stand upon the truth, no matter where it might lay. I can care about those who may delude themselves, but are still open to see the child within. But have little time in the short lives we all lead to "play games" or "dance" around the truth. Where anyone sees themselves in relation to the "truth" is only relevant to me in the amount of help I can be. Anything less is not worthy of me, and not in any way helpful to a person who honestly seeks help. I have no hidden agenda....if I did I can state it openly. I don't dance to poorly written tunes, or sad songs played in any pity parties. "Poor me, nobody loves me or undertsands me." Yeah, least of all the person making the statement. Gideon |