Fever.
Submitted by Altima on February 03 2001 16:21:49
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Well I've just come down with a big fever hat kind of came on really quick. Now I've got an uncomfortable itch in my throght, waiting to be scraped by a harsh cough, and I'm either freezing cold or roasting hot, never in between. But last night, as I lay half awake at 2am feeling like I was in a furnace, I had the first nightmare I had in years. First dream in years come to think of it. I only seem to dream when I'm sick or under the influence of drugs like Morphine (I was on morphine in a hospitol, I'm not a stoner). I tried to think of something else but I couldn't... my mind kept getting dragged back. I was in a war... I believe it was the Irish war of independance in the 1920s, it was in a rather small city, the pavement reduced to mud from shelling and fighters on either side killing innocents, whether on purpose or not. I climbed to a high point and saw half the area consumed in flames. I tried to think of something... anything, but I was so hot, I felt like I was in the flames... I could always hear screams... even now they echo in my head... I hate dreaming. I always want to be in control of my mind. Being sick reminds me of how delicate our perception is, it can be warped my microscopic organisms... they release a poison in our system and we feel like we're in the arctic circle. When I was on the morphine, it was a bit different, I didn't remember half of it and it would mostly be hallucinatory. I would see people that weren't there, or suddenly I would notice that no one had feet and they were gliding a foot above the ground. But last night I saw some kind of vision of hell at 2am, I just wanted to enjoy my weekend and now I have this dream... implanted in my brain. I can't stand it, I just want it to go away. At least now that I'm awake I can put on some music now, let myself drift away to Puccini or something. I just thought I would post this, for some reason. Dreaming has always been something unfamiliar to me, I almost never do it (Well I know everyone has many REM phases during sleep, you know what I mean) |
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