I myself..

I myself (has to be bad grammar, but I think it sounds nice ;o) ...would hate to see you go. You are one of those posters who make this board interesting. I admit that as of late things haven't always been that great here, but I'd like to believe it could change for the better again. I was surfing the web in a library just over a year ago and for some or other reason I typed the words christian and pedophile in a searchengine and ended up here. This was the first place where I saw people like me, who seemed to be doing fine (as opposed to the picture the media paints). I posted a 'cry for help' post back then (don't remember what nick I used) but didn't have a chance to come back to check for reply's. A couple of months afterwards I had net access at home,n came back here and started posting. I'm still very greatfull for the people who welcomed me back then (I can't remember all the nicks who responded, but I think Chris, Dirk and Jules where amongst them... and maybe Mark?. I tried to check in oldposts, but I see it doesn't go back that far anymore. They helped me to realise that as a BL I'm not headed for nothing but big trouble in their lives, that it isn't so that my "lusts" can only result in sin. I'm pretty happy with my life at the moment. I don't consider my BL feelings to be a blessing, but it isn't a curse either. It's just who I am. I do consider the time I get to spend with boys (hopefully more soon ;o) a blessing and don't want to ashame the position I'm put in and the trust given to me. I do think that we are by nature rebelious... at least that's my personal experience, but I'm still learning. ;o) god is love but He still detetests sin. I love God for what He has done for me and for all the blessings I've received. I also am in awe of His greatness and am very aware that I'd better not take His love and mercy for granted. If I don't watch what I do, I'll soon be far removed from God and that's not a place where I want to reside. If you were to leave, I'd think it's a loss to this board and I'd miss your participation, but I can respect whatever decision you make. Each has to do what he thinks is best. God bless, -zip-