Re: forgiveness but you continue in your ways
Submitted by John Doe on March 8 2001 08:05:40
In reply to forgiveness but you continue in your ways submitted by XelloS on March 6 2001 15:11:23
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XelloS, the vast majority of people here are celibate boylovers, many have actually never touched a boy sexually, and others have but have resolved never to do so again, yet they still struggle with their desires. Most attempt to channel their love for boys into good productive things for boys. To fully love the boys except for the sexual part, to be like a second (or sadly in the case of so many boys in this country, a first) father to the boys in their lives. Isn't the essence of "go and sin no more". For most, well I know at least for myself, that "self gratification" is just that, done all by myself. Yes I have slipped in some ways, I looked at things on the net that I should not have, and got invovled in roleplaying e-mail groups (with other adults) that were embarrasing when my wife found out about them. For these sins I have paid a terrible price. I am not longer living in the 5000 sq foot house we just built 2 years ago, I have not been able to even talk to my 3 kids in almost 2 weeks, even with Prozac I am unable to focus on my work and my health is beinging to suffer. In short my life has been turned into a living hell, for what amounts to a thought crime. No one wakes up one day and says, "You know what, i think it would be a blast if I were sexually attracted to 11 year old boys instead of 22 year old women". It is an orientation, something that we can not control, it is the way god made us. Now unless your Sunday School taught that God was a fuck up, then it can not be true that god hates boy lovers. Now while we can not control our orientations, we can control, and are responsible for our actions. So what do you mean by continuing in our sinful ways. If you were talking about someone who was continueing to regularly have sex with boys, who would go to church sunday mornig and ask for forgiveness, and then sunday night be planning to have his mouth around a boys privates, well in that case you have a point. But what about the man who asks for forgiveness, and then spends sunday afternoon playing catch with the boy, and talks to him and listens to the stories the boy tells him about the problems he is having in school with his peers, who supports the boy emotionally, who has fun with the boy. If that man, later that night when he is alone, has a sexual fanisy about the boy, is that continuing to sin? Who is free of such sin? The bible talks much more about hetrosexual sex outside of marriage as being wrong than it does about homosexuality being bad. Is undressing an 11 yo boy with your eyes any worse than undressing a 22 yo woman with your eyes? |
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