Now that is real close!
Submitted by The Continental on July 4 2001 00:33:00
In reply to Re: I cannot continue this way. submitted by Ben on July 3 2001 22:20:26
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Hi Ben and thanks for your comments. On the outside I have a very gruff personality which most people do not take much liking to and usually misunderstand. I'm not completely comfortable with it as I really have no intention of wanting to project that image. I suppose that much like you I use it as a defense so that I cannot become hurt again. On the inside I have compassion that far exceeds anything I was ever taught by the people that raised me. I don't quite understand where it comes from but I know it is there. I only have to look behind me to see that I know I'm doing the right thing. It is the failures that haunt me more than anything. I can say to myself that in most cases it was nothing more than the person choosing not to follow what I had been trying to teach. I know that it was their choice yet watching them fall will hurt me again and again. Along with the compassion comes the love of teaching what I know and have experienced to others. I find great joy in watching others learn what I know myself to be true. I know this is His way. This is what I'm supposed to do. Yet as all of you have so far stated I cannot be true to others until I'm true with myself. I understand and agree and I hope that I will find a way to better serve myself. I think I have a long road to travel however. The Continental |
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