I consider my self to be a Christian. I'm not the best Christian, but I do love the Lord. I was saved at age 12. Been through a whole lot of hell and some heaven since then. I also consider myself human - together with all those human frailties. I also am attracted to boys - my neighbors call me Peter Pan, but in a respectful manner, because I attract boys. I think it a gift from God to be in a position to influence young boys who will one day end up 'running the country' as my dad likes to say about younger generations. I got this from him because he was heavily involved in the development of boys as I was growing up. It is a responsibility not taken lightly. But having said all that, I am not immune to the lust that inevitably rears it's head during private moments with a YF with whom I might have a particularly close relationship with - as now. I have even succombed to this from time-to time, because I am weak. This is why God forgives us when we ask for forgiveness. No one is perfect and no one asked me if I wanted to be a BL'er, but I am - that's that. Everyone has their cross to bear. Just my 2 cents worth. Pic |