Thanks!
Submitted by Jules on August 18 2001 12:02:30
In reply to Re: Thoughts submitted by Splash! on August 17 2001 02:06:12
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Hey Splash! We do have a lot in common don't we! You reminded me of something from my childhood that I didn't mention. Like you I had strong moral views as a child (I suppose an idealised interpretation of the way my parents lived) and I was unpopular at school because I wouldn't join in anything that I thought might turn into anything wrong. So I didn't like contact sports because they might become violent; I didn't like athletics because I thought being competitive was self-centred, I didn't like acting because it might be wrong to pretend to be someone with lower morals, and so on. So of course I wasn't any good at anything participatory because I never put my heart into it. I might have enjoyed some or all of those things, but my mistaken beliefs outweighed my interest. That left me music and school work, neither of which do much for your social life. The one time I was chosen by some other boys as the class mascot in a set-up fight, I felt a mixture of excitement and guilt. Then as it came out that I fancied other boys in my year, again there was a mixture of feelings. Sometimes guilt, other times just enjoyment. Sometimes I was picked on and bullied because of it, other times I was just the centre of attention in a wierd sort of way, and I like that. Like you, I find that women have to be especially stunning for me to be attracted to them. Sometimes immature girls do have something about them that mature women don't. Now in my mid-thirties, my ideal women would really be aged 18-28 or so. The greatest turn-off for me is the excessively feminine. Letting God in on my sexuality has come together with trusting that he accepts me regardless of what it is. If God especially made me this way, then clearly he accepts me this way. Or if I'm just the result of a world he made that allows for variation, again must accept me. Or even if variety in sexuality is specifically a result of 'the fall', whatever that means, even then he can accept me, becaus he accepts people with any fault resulting from the fall - that's what Christianity is all about: God accepting fallen people. So however I explain it (and usually I don't even try) God can accept me; all I have to do is trust him for it. A quote I read recently (roughly): If you tried to make up a religion that was exactly the opposite of the teaching of Jesus, you'd probably come up with western Protestantism... That's all for now. Talk to you more another time. With Christian love, Jules |
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