First of all, I don't hate you. And I'm certain that God has forgiven you if you asked Him to. That is what he promises and He always means what He says. My first reaction when I read your post was that I wondered if you were being totally honest with us. The lust and desire for sex with boys is behind you? If this really is true, it must be a miracle from God, and I hope you get on your knees and thank him. Most pedophiles/boylovers never lose their sexual desire for boys. Unfortunately, no matter how you may have changed, your past will prevent you from having much contact with boys. It's something you'll just have to accept. I've found, in my less than perfect Christian walk, that although God can and does forgive all our sins, that doesn't mean He will erase the consequences of them. Dakota |