Update
Submitted by Gabe on November 28 2001 15:18:40
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Hello lads. My confession of my BLdom to my priest last week went better than expected. I said"Bless me Father for I have sinned"and all that then I stalled for awhile trying to figure out how I'd put it to him. Then I just blurted out"I'm a paedophile"and started blubbering like a baby. He asked me if I'd ever had sex with a child and I emphatically said no and continued my blubbering. He tried to console me and we prayed together for 20 minutes or so. He told me God's love was all inclusive and my attraction to boys would not keep me out of God's kingdom. He told me that he knew a Brother that was a GL and that made him no less of a decent man. But he said that I should not venture to have sexual relations with a boy because that would deffinatly be sinful. The Father absolved me of my sins in the end and it took a great load off me. I am blessed to have found such an understanding man. I will be thanking Jesus for sending him to me till the end of my days. I also told him that I had wanted to go to the seminary earlier in my life and was now contemplating if that was God's plan for me. He said it was hard to say. That it was a difficult and personal decision that I shouldn't rush into. He gave me the address of a chat room for people considering a life in the service of God where I may go to consult with priests about a vocation. But he said that I should be wary of who I told I was a BL. Cause paedophilia was still a touchy subject in the Church cause of all the scandals about priests molesting children. I went to the chat earlier this week but I'm still unsure if the priesthood is right for me. It'll take awhile for me to sort things out I reckon. Over Thanksgiving supper I told my family that I was reconsidering the priesthood. There was an ackward silence and they all just sorta glared at me like I had lobsters crawling outa my ears of something. My relations aren't so religious so they didn't quite know what to make of it. My uncle said"Ya won't be able to have sex ya know"I said yes I was aware of that. lol. My aunt said I'd have her support no matter what I chose to do with my life. Whatever path I do choose I am confident that God's hand will be there to guide me. Well you lads are all caught up now I suppose. Talk to you later. Cheers Gabe |
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