More victories!
Submitted by tigris on December 5 2001 20:50:53
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Hey guys! I posted a couple of days ago about a small victory that I had. Well, I have to say that I have not been tempted since that day. I don't know for sure what is going on, but this is unprecedented with me. I have never gone this long with out the lustful thoughts and the urge to masturbate. My 11 year old friend usually comes over on Wednesday after school and stays four or five hours until his parents can pick him up. This usually messes up any progress I have made throughout the week. It's too tempting. I usually end up fighting with myself all night not to do anything, and I end up excusing myself for a couple of minutes to masturbate and relieve my tension. Tonight was different. I really prayed before he came that I would be strong. I even prayed for the desire to be strong. I then prayed for the strength to have the desire to be strong (if that makes sense!). I have long ago realized that my human effort will accomplish nothing. I can say all I want that I am not going to lust, but it happens anyway. Tonight, I didn't have that urge at all. I related to this boy truly on a non-sexual way for the first time in a long time. I account this to God. It has to be. I couldn't have decided for myself that I wasn't going to lust or be tempted. He took all of the desire away tonight. I am so excited and so full of joy. I don't want to say that I am free, because it has only been three days since I have been tempted. But to go from fighting this hour by hour to all of a sudden having three days of freedom is great. Pray that this continues. I really like this! tigris |
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