Re: just wanted to share my feelings
Submitted by Splash! on December 20 2001 06:23:44
In reply to just wanted to share my feelings submitted by tigris on December 19 2001 19:19:09
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I just dropped by to check some of the posts, but don't have time to reply. Except I wanted to say something to you, tigris, real quick. I know what you're going through. Same happened with me. It does seem kinda sick to have those "dating" feelings about a young boy. I also went in and out of wanting to be around my YF but feeling that I couldn't live without him, yet still needing distance at times. Now that I'm not living with him (his mom and I were a couple) we have very little contact, but I still experience some of these feelings. Part of me loves him, prays for him, and wishes him the best -- even if I never see him again, but another part of me is upset with him for not keeping in touch (believe me, I do my part). The next time I see him, I don't know whether I should smile and be happy that I'm able to see/talk with him, or frown and let him know I'm upset about his actions/character. When he was younger, he was pretty much focused on doing good and striving to be a man of God, but now, he's hanging out with his friends, playing at sex, acting irresponsible. It really turns me off. But at the same time I love him, remembering who he really is -- that person I once knew before he dove into the teenage world and all of its "peer-pressure". I don't think it's right that I play guilt trips on him or try to be dramatic to exaggerate how I feel. Who's the adult here? I think it's important to be objective about it. Don't let your heart rule your mind. Be sober-minded, acting unselfishly. Peace. I'm out of time. If I think of anything else, I'll have to add it later. |
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