Re: Please Help
Submitted by Ben on January 7 2002 21:06:47
In reply to Please Help submitted by NeedHelpPlease on January 7 2002 12:26:01
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To My Dear Brother, I am so grately that God has led you here to this board. I can so feel for you right now and so relate to how you are feeling. I know that, had I not found the BL community and had I not been exposed to the gospel three years ago, my life might end up where yours is. There are no easy answers for you, but I do think that I know basically where you are in your heart right now. That is why I want to ask you just to stay here for a little while. Start reading some posts, reply if you wish, and keep talking about how you feel. Seven years ago I believed that I was the only one in the world who felt the way that I did. I was so humiliated to be what I was, yet I knew that my love for boys had never resulting in me hurting one. It didn't seem fair that I was this way and all of those around me were some other way. But since I got to know other boylovers, some in real life now, I have come to understand that I AM different. Then five years ago I hit another bottom, realizing that I could accept who I was but that I would never be happy. I almost committed suicide on my 30th birthday. But God had another plan. It all made sense to me 3 years ago, when the father of two boys that I was coaching opened a bible with me. Today I am a devout Christian, actively involved in working with youth in the ministry and I even have a girlfriend. Am I no longer attracted to boys? No, I still am. I will always be. But I have found a perspective and an understanding that this is to be MY thorn in my side. My life is under control and most of all, I have hope. And YOU have hope. So, please stay and talk. I am praying for you now. You are not alone. Love your brother in Christ, Ben Romans 5:5 And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. 2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. |
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