I'd say that it is a reflection of your own self doubt about your motives with boys - that you do care, and yet at times you lust as well (as all BLs are liable to.... no rock throwing intended!). I know in my own life my relationships with boys have ranged from the safe, appropriate and not in the slightest sexually motivated, to the opposite. I've slowly learnt to spot the danger signs and provide safe barriers. You say you work with boys - I suggest you make sure that you keep strictly to safe practice about not being alone with one, and with another adult as much as possible. We walk a fine line - we can offer them much, but there is a risk; I hope and pray that you don't become another of those who has crossed the line to his lasting regret. But whatever the significance of the dream, thanks for sharing it, and I hope that we can be of help to you in the future - and you to us! |