Re: The light at the end of the tunnel
Submitted by Ben on January 9 2002 22:18:56
In reply to The light at the end of the tunnel submitted by tigris on January 9 2002 19:28:27
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tigris, I can so relate to your situation right now. It is the one that I was in time and again in my life, until I made a promise to myself that I would not do it anymore. Instead, I turned to lust and fantasy, something that would never make me wonder if it liked me, that I would never have to love. It is only recently that I am letting my heart open up again, in this case to TJ. After this past weekend, a fun time but a time that I was tough on him and he felt it, I am obsessing over him, thinking about him every minute, unable to deal with my emotions of longing for him. Earlier in the week I was medicating those feelings with surfing the net for pictures but I made a decision that I would not do this anymore. Instead, I lay down on the floor of my bathroom every morning and beg God to take it into his hands. I surrender my emotions and TJs fate to God, and I will just follow Jesus as much as I can. Keep loving him (your YF) and setting the example that you are. I believe that God will work through you to touch his heart. You might not see the fruits of that today (or maybe you will), but you will make an impact just the same. You are not alone. Love, Ben |
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