sadly the Catholic church has a lot of experience with pastors who have fallen short of the standards expected of them, and sometimes a monastery can be a good place to hide away and reconsider where things are at. You might even pluck up the courage to tell the 'guestmaster' what's really going on - the more you tell, the more they'll be able to help. Of course that is based on the assumption you hit a good one - but I suspect the probability is that you would be lucky. Just a thought to be going on with! May God guide you to a good place really soon |