I don't beat myself up anymore for being attracted to boys, although I used to. This board along with years of having to live with it have helped me accept myself as I am. I have told very few people and don't plan on telling any more, although I'm not saying it could never happen. The few times I've told r/w people about my attractions have never been beneficial to either them or me. The best that has happened is that it was neutral, but even then they felt uncomfortable talking about it. I think the reason I am sometimes a bit uncomfortable when I realize I am enjoying a movie because of the boy in it, is because it's a reminder that I am different than most people. And it reminds me of what most people would feel about me if they knew why I was enjoying the movie. Even after all these years, being different still bothers me. Thanks for caring. Dakota |