Hang in there my friend. Not many sixteen year olds find life easy. So much is going on, so much is changing, the future seems really hard to hold onto. I can't tell you what to do with your life. I wont do it. All I can do is tell you what I would do if I could go back and start over: - I would talk to people, to my dad, to a pastor, to anyone who would listen and tell them what is going on inside. - I would realize that people DO like me and that life isn't nearly as bad as I thought. - I would stay far from sex, far from masturbation, far from it all. I'd focus on sports, school, God, anything else. - I'd get to know girls. If I had ANY attraction at all, I'd think of that, not about boys. I'll pray for you, dude. You are not alone. Love, Ben |