Pandora's Box
Submitted by tigris on January 27 2002 12:55:40
In reply to Re: I also started reading it submitted by Ben on January 26 2002 23:11:28
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I am in my late 20's. I didn't start masturbating until I was 25 years old. It was never a temptation before then; it never really even crossed my mind to do it. In fact, it wasn't until then that my boylove urges increased drastically. Until then I really enjoyed working with boys, but I wasn't really attracted to them. It all changed when I started getting the internet in my home. I still remember the night that I gave in to the temptation to look for pictures. I found some of adult males. That was a rush, and I kept going back for more. Gradually I started finding younger people until I found pictures of nude boys. Masturbation soon followed, as well as the BL. It's like I opened Pandora's Box, and now I can't close it. If I could go back and do it again, I would. I wouldn't have gave in that night. It's all been downhill since then. It is in this sense that I wonder if I am different from some of you. My BL has not been something that has been present all of my life. I wasn't attracted to girls though either. Maybe I just awakened what was there all along. Who knows? I sometimes take a step back and think, "how did I get here? Am I going to stay here? Is there any way out????" tigris |
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