Re: Digging deep into my memory
Submitted by Ben on January 29 2002 08:06:12
In reply to Digging deep into my memory submitted by Jules on January 27 2002 13:14:50
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Jules, In my case, I do remember also thinking about girls before I became sexually aware. But I was fiercely 'jealous' of the cute athletic boys in my school. I liked so much the way that they looked, but I didn't think of it as attraction, I thought of it as 'longing to be like them'. I would lay awake in bed at night, longing for their appearance. At some point, masturbation consoled those feelings of longing. I never thought of the boys naked or doing sexual things (after all....that would have been gay!). I just longed to be like them, friends with them....one of them. You are not alone. Love, Ben |
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