Perspective (And an insightful Onion article)
Submitted by Altima on February 12 2002 21:41:11
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LINK: http://www.theonion.com/onion3805/holocaust_museum_cashier.html The moral of the story is that enveloping oneself in darkness can erase your will to go on. After reading this, I realised how the worst years of my life were spent brooding over something. Odd sexuality, culture shock, peer groups and my future. It damn near drove me to insanity (at least I think so). Even the couple months I spent researching and writing a project on the Holocaust impacted my psyché in general. These days, I feel a bit more at peace with myself. I've stopped thinking about sexuality. Not a concious decision, it just happened. Does this mean I deny what I think is beautiful? No. But I see beauty like the artist I used to be would see beauty. Purity of form, feaures and countenance. I see beauty in people first and foremost. Some have it in abundance, some are lacking. Physical beauty, then, is something simply that is pleasing to the eye. Perhaps that's too much of a voyeuristic attitude to take on, what I mean is that to appreciate the physical nature of beauty, one doesn't need to... have it. (Then again, who am I kidding? It was only a couple days ago when, standing on a bus, I felt an odd rush when my bare arm had the opportunity to come into prolonged contact with the bare arm of a female passenger. The feeling on skin-to-skin contact like that was foreign and alien to me, and the realisation made it seem painfull. In retrospect, it's most painful to even have reacted that way.) I still tend to brood at times. Will I be able to conform to the local school system enough to be free? Would I be able to go to a college of my choosing, instead of a college of my parents' choosing? What troubles me the most is balancing what I think I want, and what I think I need out of life. I want a shining career in something like acting or writing. Will I get it? Nope, not likely. Would it be a satisfying lifestyle? Who knows? I detest the notion of a quiet, obscure mediocre life, even though it seems to have worked for many. I'm getting off-topic here. What I mean by this post is that perhaps we must take a big step back from viewing a particular angle of our lives very closely (in this case, BL.) We need to put everything in perspective. In my untrained opinion, if people get obsessed about being BL, they'll lose touch with reality. People define their entire existance on perspective. Centuries of only looking at things from the ground made people believe the Earth was center of the universe, when in reality, it's just a speck in a giant moving complex of creation. Being BL does not define who we are and it is not the center of our existance. Anyway, I know I'm just preaching to the choir here (to use a religious metaphor, heh heh) and I'll bet this little thought is not even close to being a new one, but out of six billion people currently living on the planet and countless others who have lived and died before us, is an original thought possible anymore? |
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