Dear Chris, Thank you for your support - it means so much and has helped me tremendously. I just wish God would address those areas of my life where I am sorely troubled, lacking and hurting *now*. I know how silly that sounds, like I somehow know more and have better timing than God - it's just I'm in so much pain and He just seems to be ignoring all my pleas and purposefully hurting me: Why, O LORD, do you reject me ...and hide your face from me? From my youth I have been afflicted and close to death; ...I have suffered your terrors and am in despair. Your wrath has swept over me; ...your terrors have destroyed me. All day long they surround me like a flood; ...they have completely engulfed me. You have taken my companions and loved ones from me; ...the darkness is my closest friend. Psalm 88:14-18 Where is that help I so desperately need? I think God has already sent some, in the form of the many replies below and over e-mail. It may not be an address to all of my troubles, but it is a start. I guess I simply must humble myself and allow God to help me in His own way and not how I think He should help me. Thank you, Chris, for everything and God bless you! Love in the Lord, J |