Re: OK why the title boylovers?
Submitted by foxfire on March 24 2002 14:24:49
In reply to OK why the title boylovers? submitted by sally on March 24 2002 12:43:20
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hello sally i hardly post here. i always think i lack the wisdom or the skill to benifit anyone with my posts. but i was kinda hurt by your post. now i may be mistaken in some parts. but thats what i feel an its gettin kinda late here. i didnt choose to be what i am. feel what i feel. now you have no idea how it feels. yes youre a mother. you love your kids. but can you even imagine what it feels like if they are to be taken away from you? little by little? knowing someday youll just have to stop being a mother. and that someday theyll completely forget about you. i just came back from my half-uncle's place. spent the last 2 hours with two boys. in less than a year i have to leave thge country. and after that ill probably just be "a cousin" to them. just a cousin. that is if they remember me. i keep running the scene where i have to say goodbye and hug them for the last time. and it hurts ...do you know how that feels.? do you think anyone would choose being hurt over and over again just to have a stupid title? or a sign or whatever. there are boylover who were thrown in prison. were cast out. even tried to end thier sad lives. do you think that if there was an easier way they wouldve taken it? im not trtying to prove a point. just saying that this pain in my chest is not a lie. is not a fantasy. to me it's very real. and its there most of the time. My best friend kept telling me that i could change. right before he started calling me names. my best friend calling me a fagget an a sicko. thats the least rejection we get when we do come out to people who we think trust and love us. most of us need a shelter. from the hate, from the rejection. and thats why this page exists. its not like were putting up flyers all over. this is our centuary. a place we can share the feelings and the pain. please respect it. respect our feelinlgs. it is real i thought i was alone foxfire |
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