Re: the eroticisation of love
Submitted by Thunderchild on March 28 2002 17:56:46
In reply to Re: the eroticisation of love submitted by sally on March 28 2002 00:51:49
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Hi Sally. There are many things that God forbids, for everyone and some things that are given to some people and forbidden for another. One thing for me is wealth and prosperity - I'll never have what I'd call enough money - and I'm not talking a lot here either. That's the path the Lord has set me on, these things do not come in my ministry. For you it could be any number of things. Perhaps you're in a position in the church that the Lord does not want you in? Perhaps, by reading and posting here, you've entered a world you're not supposed to be involved in? For some people certain types of music are a sin, because of how they affect that person. For others, the same types of music are perfectly OK. But for us, things are different still. We've become attracted to boys, and that's a hard thing to break. I've fought this for 14 years. I've had the best the world and the church can offer to help me fight this, and it's still there. I know I have yet to experience the best that the Lord can offer, but that'll come one day soon I hope. But despite our desires being wrong, there is a lot of good that comes out of it. I have been "adopted" by an overseas family, because of the influence my love of boys has had on their son - his relationship with his family and his relationship with the Lord are stronger because of my influence. Or take Nigel, a boy I am fairly close to (but not sexually). His relationship with his mother was seriously bad last year. Whatever he had to say about her was filled with hate, and that was out of the way she treated him. Now, they can be hard to seperate sometimes. His school work has improved, and I hope to lead him (and his family through him) back to the Lord in the next few weeks. I know that my desire to take him to bed is wrong. But my friendship with him is not wrong, I know the Lord would have spoken to me about it before now if it was. I do know that the Lord has spoken to me about having sex with Nigel (not his real name BTW), I have been warned that it will lead him into other things that lead to his death. I may have wrongfull thoughts towards people, mainly boys. I may burn when I see a cute boy, but does that prevent the Lord from using me to help that boy? One question for you to think about. I can feel a deep sexual attraction to anyone I am close to in any way. It may be someone who I've chatted with across the net, or it might be the old couple across the street. My main attraction is towards boys, but I can become attracted to anyone at any time. As any human contact leads to temptation, what should I do? Control things so that I never act on those temptations, or leave the world so I never have to face them? Until the Lord finishes dealing with me on this issue, I either have to flee temptation which means fleeing all other people, or face other people, which means being in a place where I am tempted. |
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