Re: The nature of the 'gift of celibacy'
Submitted by sally on April 5 2002 11:29:13
In reply to Re: The nature of the 'gift of celibacy' submitted by Thunderchild on April 5 2002 06:11:53
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Thunderchild, I don't believe I said you can just choose to change. If I did I'm sorry. I did not mean to make light of your situation. It is a burden. It is heavy. What I meant to convey was that I don't necessarily care how you "feel" about it or how many studies have been done to "show" that you can't change. I believe the Bible says you can change. And I believe that every time the thought comes into your head that you would like to do something sexual with some boy you are sinning. You are wanting something God has forbidden and that is sin. Not sin worse than anybody else's, but sin all the same. As for changing my orientation I believe beyond a shadow of a doubt I could be a lesbian or even travel into bestiality if I let myself. I have lived too long to say, "Never would I do such a thing." There is no doubt in my mind that I could learn to love all kinds of forbidden sexual activity. I don't think I could jump directly into any of these things but I do believe that I could travel a road that leads there. I have studied sexuality by observation for many years. I had a line I wouldn't cross back in my drug days. Probably because my father was a minister and some of that teaching I had as a child restrained me. But I had friends who were not homosexual who got into homosexual activity. It clearly was a case of getting bored with the same old thing and trying something new. And why not? If you don't believe in God why not let another man take care of your sexual desires or an animal? And lesbian sex was all the rage for many of my friends. I also know many who find very young children attractive. Just one more object to be used in their quest for ever more exotic sexual experiences. Stolen water tastes sweet. The difference between the people I've observed and you, I think, is that my friends could get off on anything. It didn't matter to them what hole they stuck it in. I think I could learn to love just about anything, too. But for some reason it doesn't work the other way. I have a neighbor now who is a lesbian who was married for ten years and had no clue she was a lesbian. She met my lesbian neighbor and fell in love and swore she'd never go back to men. I asked her partner if she could switch. Since the heterosexual can switch to homosexuality why can't it work the other way around. It apparently is impossible. Why? This makes no sense to me whatsoever. I have no doubt that I could be a boylover if I worked at it a bit. Or a girllover. And believe me the very idea repulses me down to the tips of my toes. I have no understanding of why you can't become a woman lover. Why can't you get over the repulsion? sally@paraklesis.com |
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