Hi Ben, In this case, I believe the Light is knowing that you have to be true to where you`re at, rather than where you want to be. It takes a lot of courage to know your own weakness, and to admit it. I want nothing more than to truly be able to change, to be able to be a husband and a father to someone. But I cannot pretend the change to be. Knowing the work that needs to be done for you to give everything to a future wife is important. Now you can continue to seek a path to make that a genuine reality. I can say that I`ve met a man who was able to get his BL feelings under control, have a successful marriage and family. It isn`t something that I feel called to do, but I have seen that it is possible, with God`s Help. Peace of Christ, Bach |