Re: New to the Forum
Submitted by Symgara on May 18 2002 23:56:28
In reply to Re: New to the Forum submitted by JohnQ on May 18 2002 18:29:09
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i have a personal account for all that have wondered wether being a BL wuz what god really wanted out of anyone. I have told this story to very few ppl, mainly because i have yet to really chat with any group of boylover christians, usually its one or the other :) basically it goes like this, my life had been kinda spiraling down for a few years, after i realized what i might be ( a boylover) at the age of about 15. well after about 3 years of depression off and on, i'd just about had all i could handle. I broke down and basically prayed for god to make me straight. Along with this prayer i promised myself that the next day (being sunday) i would put all my efforts into looking at girls and not looking at boys, trying to be attracted to them. well this turned out to be completely a failure. not only could i not find any attraction to girls, i had a very hard time not looking at boys. well that night i wuz feeling very rejected and borderline ready to give up on there even being a god. after an hour or so of crying, i went up to bed. I listen to the radio at night to help me sleep, and as i turned it on. i heard what i believe wuz the answer to my prayer that i thought god had not heard. The song i heard wuz not almost over nor wuz it right at the begining. it began the verse "some of gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers". to this day i believe that god wants me to be a boylover.....though i have not figured out why. But i truely believe that i am supposed to be a BL questions or comments wlecome ~Symgara (21 years old - Just FYI) |
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