Re: some commentaries on boylove
Submitted by hyacinth on 2002-06-9 01:40:04, Sunday
In reply to some commentaries on boylove submitted by Genghis on 2002-06-7 01:49:06, Friday
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Hi, I am new here. I am a Christian, and I am gay, and I am married, and I am a boylover. There seems to be a lot of confusion about who I am and what I am, the above parts don't seem to fit so well together. I guess I am boylover first. I havehad many relationships with boys, and many of those turned sexual. My boyhood was filled with sex, with both boys and girls, and at age 14 I had my first affair with a man, actually a benedictine monk. I am not catholic, it was a chance encounter, and it was wonderful, I have no negative feelings about either the monk or the catholic church, and no amount of money is going to convince me otherwise. I tried to call him for a second date, but he didn't return my calls. I had a few other men, then it was only boys for many years. A little over 20 years ago I decided that the hysteria was rising, gays were being accepted but they shunned boylovers, so I decided to give up boys altogether. I met a nice lady and we got married. We hoped to have kids, but we were unable to, and we were unable to adopt. I am still married to her and will stay with her for the rest of my life, I am committed to her. We just celebrated our 20th anniversary, and I hope to have 20 more. I am sad most of the time, I feel like I have wasted my life. I just joined another church, the 4th different denomination I have been in, but already I feel it is hopeless. I will never be accepted, I will never fit in. sorry to run on so, hyacinth |
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