Thanks Bach
Submitted by identifying on 2002-08-4 23:08:34, Sunday
In reply to Re: HELP ME PLEASE submitted by Bach on 2002-08-4 19:27:33, Sunday
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Hi Bach Thanks for being on this message board Bach. I am finally in a position to look at my thinking about boylove feelings. I know that I can not stop them and tkank I do not act on them. I wish not to hurt any boy or myself. the last time I had a relationship with a boy was in 1965 when I was 17 and now I am 53. About 5 years ago I almost did and if I would have I was going to kill myself after, But GOD did come back into me just in time. The boy was I should say young man was 16 and 4 mouths old at the time. I have known him when he was just 5. At the age of 14 he told me that he love me, Also at that time I was going throuth some bad times with my wife, I got divorced about 4.5 years ago. I know that not only am I gay but a boylover. I try to look in my owe age group for a gay relationship, But I can't and will not go to a bar to try to find one. See I work the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous and some time I go to Sex Anonymous even with GOD and konwing that I am just the way GOD want me to be my thinking tells me that I am a very sick man. The young man and I see eachother from time to time. We both have alot of fun together We do not hug,kiss,or have sex. He tell me and show me that he love me and I love him. This young man is not gay, But maye BI. The help I am looking for is trying to think of ways to divert the ever day thinking of boylove. I do not think that I would ever act on my thinking, But I just do not know. I think by comeing to this message board it will help me and mybe other out. I do have GOD in my life and pray that I alway will. Thank you for being you and being here My GOD be with us always Tom |
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