Holy smokes!
Submitted by Reason Filled on 2002-10-14 17:49:10, Monday
In reply to Re: about my Dad submitted by 'J' on 2002-10-14 11:40:37, Monday
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Only 13? I can't believe your maturity level. I am very glad that you have a great dad, and that you are so well centered at such an early age. Nothing but great things can be expected from you. Just always remember to put God first. He can take you anywhere you want to go, but I have found that the places He wants you to go are even better. Growing up without a dad (he left us when I was 8), I would list as the worst thing that happened to me. Only God was able to see me through that. I still have demons from it, but God is always there to comfort me. I regret making the mistake of not listening to God during my teens. You see, I was saved when I was only 6 (and Yes, I was truly saved). God has always been in my life, but when I was a teen, I ignored Him. I got into drugs, and unchristian friends. Sure, each night, as I was in bed, I would feel regret (you can't help feeling bad when you sin as a Christian), I would ask for forgiveness, but then I would go right about doing the same thing the next day. Looking back on it, it is almost as if God just said "if you want to do that so bad, do it". And I did. Similar to when a frustrated parent let's their kid stay up all night just to let them learn the hard way. And I did learn the hard way. Thankfully, I never got into any worse crimes than drugs. I'm glad for what I learned, but I can't help but regret not living as I should havek, or studying as I should have. My high IQ allowed me to not even try in school and still pass. I could have been valedictorian, I could have had my pick at Universities, and who knows where I could be now. Sure, I blamed it all on my father for awhile, but eventually, as an adult, I have to start taking that blame. Yeah, my life sucked as a child. Yeah, I went through severe depression. Heck, I haven't mentioned the utter hopelessness I fell into as a result of being a BL; Suicidal thoughts galore. These are all excuses, but eventually, excuses just don't cut it. I believe God sees it the same way. He has given me leeway. I have no doubt that if I had died during my sinful teenage years, I would still have gone to heaven; and, as the Bible tells us, God will not allow us to be tested beyond our limits. He is always there to help us, but we have to be the ones to pick ourselves up and take his hand. My prayers are with you and your dad God Bless, RF P.S. I don't usually talk so bluntly with guys your age, but I sense you are mature enough to handle it. |
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