Mind Games + Passing Moments (semi-long)
Submitted by Halo on 2002-10-29 04:57:31, Tuesday
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Saturday 26th - Mind Games Cujo's mind games (El's alter-ego) continued after we'd checked on Pichu at work, it was busy & he didn't know when he was going to be able to take a break. In order for you to understand this I have to set the scene. I'm in the arcades with El/Cujo, holding his soccor ball & gloves in a carrier bag. He's winning big money on every machine. He then turns to me & says "What do you want, I thought you were going?" I'd been with him for 20 mins & hadn't said a word. He then moves from machine to machine saying "Why are you following me?", something I deny. Then he comes out with "I don't want you seeing my brother" - "Why?" - "Cause I don't & he's at work." I follow him from machine to machine, ignoring his arguements. I try to talk to him but he stops me by saying "Don't bother, I'm not listening to you" & I walk away. This is what he wants right? Wrong! He gets up chases after me "You better not be going to see my brother or I'll f-king deck ya, I mean it". At this point I stop & shadow him back to the machines, filled with anger & praying for strength to fight this battle of wills. Part of me wants me to let him try & hit me, but thats exactly what Cujo wants, cause then El will return when I try to fight back & he'll wonder whats going on. His mood changes slightly along with the questions "I know what it is, you want something, don't ya. What is it just tell me & I'll give it to ya." - "Nothing" I reply, "There's gotta be something, tell me". We walk outside & he warns me about not seeing his brother again & I walk off in the opposite direction, cause I've had enough. El then calls me "Halo, where are you going?" I don't answer but walk back to him. "What wrong?" he asks, continuing "If I've said something to upset you, tell me & I'll leave you alone." I go with him at his request back to another arcade & he wins money again. We move on to a 3rd arcade, where he helps me out on a machine, we'd just changed up a large sum of coins & he now has about $80.00 on him. When I win on the machines, I have to give him half of my winnings; this is what he does with his brother when they play the machines together. Doing this I hope will gain more respect from him. We move around again, watch some Rugby on TV & another mood breaks out as I refuse to play a soccor arcade game with him. I let him walk off this time, but he calls me back again. I'm close to breaking point when Pichu appears from behind, splits us, putting an arm around each of us saying "alright guys". (He's had a tough session at work I found out later & he got stressed out & had a little cry his Sv said, when he couldn't keep up the pace. So seeing his two favorite people made him a lot happier I guess. El says he wants to meet up with Pichu later & Pichu becons me to go with him. El stops where he was going & follows behind (so much for a bit of 1-2-1). In the small bingo hall, I watch Pichu play the machines, the glances from El/Cujo are hard to read. I end up giving Pichu $5.00 all I had left in change to see if the reels would hold for a feature. He gives me his loose cents to return the gesture. Pichu goes back to work 30 mins later, they're meeting up to go out as a family with mum & step-dad tonight, El says he's buying the drinks. We return to watch the Rugby where again he's not happy with me. This time I wait outside & he says "What are you doing out there?" and I go & join him. He wants to see the soccor scores, but they're showing the Rugby until it finishes. He asks for a choc-bar, I have no change, so I suggest buying one from the grocery store for him. He goes with me & ends up spending nearly $5.00 of my money on sweets (which is almost the equivalent to what I gave Pichu, so fare is fare). We go our seperate ways again, me to eat & him to work. He didn't meet me when he finished tonight, neither did Pichu. I was hoping they would. Sunday 27th - Passing Moments Started the day by forgetting to put my clock back an hour making me an hour early for everything. Went to eat at 11am (GMT) & El had just come out of work & upon seeing me covered his eyes with his cap, pretending not to notice me. "El" I said - "Hi, I was just coming to see you" he replied. He looked sad "Whats wrong?" I asked "My friend passed away last night." Being a berievement councellor, my services were required here. I listened instinctively as we walked into town. He said how he wanted to see me last night & tell me then, but he couldn't. "I've gotta go to my nans first" he said, continuing "you can come if you want, but not everytime". We walked down this tiny road & he told me to wait by a lamp-post for him. He walked on & entered his nan's house. I waited patiently for him for over 30 mins, before deciding to leave before I looked suspisious. I wasn't happy, thinking he'd forgotten about me. I hadn't gone far when he came running round the corner saying "Halo, where are you going?" - "I've gotta go" (I had a meeting to go to out of town.) - "What time do you have to go?" - "2oC" I replied (oC = O'clock). "We've got plenty of time. I was just getting changed, having some tea & when I came out the door, I wondered where you'd gone." He explained. "I'm sorry" I said heartfeltly. He knew & said "So you should be" then he stopped & gave me this huge hug, holding me tighter & closer than ever before. "I'm gonna miss you 2nite, I'll be in my bed crying cause you're not there." He continued. Along the way back, we bumped into the gay barman, who was struggling with his bags, going to the station, heading home. El gave him a hug, when he saw him & we helped him with his bags. We had a chat along the way & before leaving us he said that he wouldn't know what he would have done if it wasn't for his two "Guardian Angles" (me & El) appearing when we did. I also hugged him & said my goodbyes to him. We hopped to the cash point together & discussed things he'd like us to do together, visit other towns, train rides etc. (Father/son things.) He went on to explain that his friend was a married lady, she died peacefully in her sleep, she had cancer. She was holding he husbands hand as she passed away & they told each other their "I love you"'s. I got a $20 note out, he sighed hoping for more & we proceeded to the arcades. Pichu was there with another friend, younger, but bigger built (still at school), he called himself Brock Lessnor after the WWE Wrestling star. Pichu greeted El with a cell phone, saying it was his & they gave each other a big hug. Pichu then turned to me & gave me a strong hug as well. Not for as long as El had done earlier, but just as lovingly. We went into the arcades by the cliffs & split into various machines. Brock got change for my loose $10 I already had & we played the machines together. Brock kept asking me & insisting that I loan him $10.00, I refused on every occasion & explained to El that I didn't know this kid, so couldn't really trust him. Despite him being somewhat affectionate as well, despite his build. Pichu also kept asking me to lend him $20.00, I said no. He kept insisting, but I still refused. El was back to calling me Dad again, I said I didn't mind. Time crept on & I announced that I had to leave. Again the begging for money started, a new excuse emerged from Pichu "I've just spent my mum's money, I was supposed to keep that" (Surprise, surprise). I walked away. El said to Pichu "Don't worry I'll talk to him". I told him my worries that it will just go back into the machines again. Pichu promised that it wouldn't & if I wanted, it could be an advance of Birthday money (but I also have other plans for that day). I gave in when Pichu said that they would go to McD's so he wouldn't spend it on the machines. I walked on. El caught me up & asked if he could borrow $20.00. I said no, but he wasn't giving up. I carried on walking & got a strange look from an onlooker (male 35-40yo). But after calling Halo, Halo, didn't work, he stopped me in my tracks "Dad" he said. (This would've put this guy off I guess. He caught me up & I tried to explain the money thing. He started some BS about his brother not liking me now cause I cuddle him. I gave him a look of unbelief & he changed the story, accusing me of calling Pichu a w-ker "What!!!!" I exclaimed. I managed to get a word in & he stopped his ranting. Pichu & Brock caught us up, showing me that they did buy McD's (not $20 worth I should say). They were chanting "Halo is the best" & "We love you Halo". I continued with the money talk & El said that I was his best friend & that his parents had money & debt problems at home & El has to pay rent etc, & his step-dad isn't working. (Eh, Pichu said his step-dad did work, or maybe is retired.) I came to realise that this was again part of the 50/50 deal with the two of them, cause I'd given Pichu $20, I had to give El $20 as well. So I gave in to El & got money for him & myself. I returned to them & got a further hug from El & a smaller one from Pichu as he was eating, before I had to dash away for my appointment. Sure enough, as I turned around, they were heading back in the direction of the arcades. Monday 28th - Brief encounter El came into my work, hovered. He's had a hair cut a #3 I think. He said that Pichu would be in later tomorrow (today) cause of meeting a gf. He arranged to meet me at 12oC, despite this being his day off. We also exchanged phone numbers, at his request (remembering the trouble with phone numbers before) & he departed for the night. |
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