Armageddonit
Submitted by Halo on 2002-11-5 05:40:23, Tuesday
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Nov 4 - Armageddonit After what seemed like the usual money grabbing happy day, things got a bit out of hand. El had been to my place & spent about an hour in my company alone & I must say very comfortable & happy during our private time together. The telephone interuptions from Pichu & Brock were a pain in the bum, but at least I sorted out his back problem at last. The problems started when we tried to find Pichu & Brock afterwards, my cellphone was playing up. The network was down or the sim-card was giving me problems, even standing right next to one of those towers that alledgidly fry your brains, I couldn't get a signal & another network appeared on my phone for a minute. We eventually found them back at the arcades, but El had a row with Brock about why we took so long to find them & he wanted us to leave them. We didn't go to Celadon as planned, but went back to their home town, where would you believe it, I met El's nan & was invited into his El's house by El & Pichu (yes the same address he hit the roof over me finding, he lead me to & got me in). We met up with another couple of Pichu's mates, one male, one female, who played little part in the rest of the night, but were around. We all went back again to El & Pichu's. El wanted me to wait inside for him, but Pichu insisted that his parents would be back soon. He was right "Hi T" he said to his Dad & El ushered me out the back door, just in time. That was a close one! This is the best bit here, I get $75.00 out of the atm (I wanted $15, but guess who pressed the higher key) & went to try to buy alcohol from the liquor store. These guys are not street-wise & followed me in. I picked up 4 Buds & went to pay at the counter "Have you got any ID on you at all" I'M ASKED BY THE CHECKOUT PERSON (I'm 30yo btw). I didn't have any & even a photo-work ID card wasn't enough as it didn't have my DOB on it. I left the store with them killing myself laughing. Do I really look 17 (I really hope so). The truth is that they could not supply to me if they thought that my party was underage (to be honest only El was legal age, but he didn't have ID either). We travelled back to camp-town, where we're joined on the train by El's parents (I keep my distance, sitting with Pichu's mates, looking innocent). I see a friend from Church on the train & call to him, passing saying "at least I know God is with me tonight" (I sure needed him to be). In camp-town, things were okay, until me & El split from the group & went to the cliffs. The others followed & took $15 to buy McD's for all of us (the last time I saw that money). El wasn't happy, he'd been trying so he said not to get money off me & I was giving in to Pichu. He wanted to kill himself again. He spoke about the funeral & I told him quite innocently that his friend would always be in his heart. That would've been comfort to most people, but not El, who snapped & accused me that it meant something far worse. "How can she been in my heart, she's dead" (he has no spiritual feelings at all). I had really upset him "Thats it I'm phoning my Dad & telling him what you did to me today, goodbye Halo, your dead now". The battle had begun. I followed him, listening to his anger, his pleas to die, "I'll jump off this wall", "I'll just lay in the road", "how about I climb this building & just jump off". It continued like that. Nothing I said this time could help him. I was out of my depth. I got angry with him for the first time, when he tried to stop me ringing Pichu to help. (This was his game & I was going to ruin everything.) He wanted the three reasons not to die, but he wouldn't accept that I loved him. So I shouted authoritivly at him "If you die, what will everyone think, what will your Mum think, your Dad, your Brother, your Nan". Upon mentioning his Nan he went into one. "Thats it your taking the piss out of my family now." - "What!" - "Yeh, you've done it now" - "That it" I cried "I'm finished here, I can't do anything more for you". I walked away, phoned his brother saying that El/Cujo was going to kill himself again. Cujo raced after me, trying to stop me seeing his brother. I persisted & we reached his brother where we'd left them. El didn't want Pichu near me, Pichu protested, but agreed to keep the distance whilst we sorted things out. Cujo explained to Pichu what I'd said about his friend being in his heart. "That right" Pichu said "She is, I'm siding with Halo on that one" (El still wasnt happy). El then got me to say what I'd said about his family missing him. Again Pichu agreed & tried to make Cujo understand. He got his other friend involved as well, it didn't help too well. Pichu tried to make Cujo shake my hand, he was having none of it. That was when I broke down & cried infront of him. The wall of stone in his heart stood firm. In front of Pichu, I struggled with my words, telling El that I felt that something was blocking his true emotions, that I wasn't fighting him, but something inside him that was telling him to turn against me. Pichu was moved by my words telling Cujo that it had taken a real man to say what I'd said (the actual words I can't remember, but I said I knew his heart & what I saw infront of me now wasn't the Elekid I knew & loved). Pichu left us to sort things out, requesting that I phone him later the results. I prayed heartfeltly as we walked towards the park, El had returned & walked away from me as I prayed. The pain & the greif had hit him hard. I prayed for God to melt his heart & El called me. I went round to him & he threw his arms around me crying & telling me how sorry he was for what he'd just put me through. During the next hour, he told me that when I shouted at him, I sounded like his mother, it hurt him. He told me some private things about today, which I shall not repeat here, but what had happened couldn't be changed. When he was happy again, it seemed that the playful demon had returned, hovering by the ATM, asking to borrow cash (this is the one that tries to extort money out of me using El as a cuddly "dad, please" requester. I wasn't falling for it. I was hurt big-time. I passed some cash to him before we got the train, for tomorrow (today), cause we're going out alone. No Pichu, No Brock (Pichu has college & Brock has school, where he should've been today). He got me to board the train with him, cause he didn't want to leave me. Voluntarily he said that he wanted to stay the night with me, but his parents wouldn't let him. On the train, he tried to get me to break into my last big note, to buy a ticket, but the guard said not to worry about it for such a short journey (this was the Demon again). Back in home-town, we met up with Pichu again, El spent the money I gave him for today, but won it back on the fruities & rode home with Pichu. He told me to leave my cell on all night. He sent me two messages, saying "I love you" I replied to both. "I love you too" & "I love you forever". At 03:30hrs, I got my voicemail messages 15 hours late, one from soccor, one from Elekid, one from Spinarak. I slept well after long prayers last night. I don't really want to see any of them again, if all they want is money! Things have to change otherwise I will be emotionally destroyed & scared for life! Halo |
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