Breaking point
Submitted by Halo on 2002-11-9 05:51:33, Saturday
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Defined as "when you snap". Only a few people have ever brought me to this. Tyrogue, Rattata & now Elekid. Tyrogue was scared of it, but learned to ignore it. Rattata gets kicks out of seeing me at it, it scares him but he lives with it. Elekid - only time will tell. It had been a comfortable day. We'd gone to an-other town, Elekid, Pichu & me, they originally used their own money, just leaning on me for food, which I don't mind. El & Pichu also enjoyed a lot of wrestling, on the train & on the grass by a pond. I also joined in at their request, Pichu claimed a pin-fall over me, when I tried a body scissors move. El & Pichu do get involved quite a bit, but once fell over a public trash can & I was on hand to make sure that both boys were not seriously hurt. Brock rang me from time to time, to check on my financal situation "Your not giving them money are you" he asked, but at the time I wasn't. The day went on, money did change hands unfortunately. El was going to stay at a friends house, but opted to stay with me in the end, when his friend couldn't make it. We got a few drinks & something for Pichu. Me & El played pool, several games, whilst Pichu was on the machines. El was in a good mood after a quick can & alone up there, there was a few close cuddly moments, El seemed to enjoy the play. After getting some more drinks, we left Pichu with his mates & returned to home-town to get El's pass to gain access to the camp. He had problems finding it, but I prayed & he found it. We proceeded back to camp-town, gingerly entering the camp & up to my room. Things were going well. We slowly downed a can or two, El impressed me with his skill of catching sweets in his mouth, chucking them up in the air, first. He got me to try too, I was less successful. We also played Eminem on the sterio. Pichu was going to cover for El so that he could sleep the night, but I'd prayed that if El wanted to leave & go home, I wouldn't be too disappointed & would see him home. The problems began on the train. L had been phoning me & Elekid didn't want me to speak to him. (L wanted Elekid in this film he's making.) Elekid sent back very childish messages, to which L completely ignored or wrote back "child". So I didn't really think anything of it, when there was a knock at the door. We didn't answer it, but the caller left. My flatmate told me that L had been looking for me. Thats when El/Cujo showed a change again. The game was up. He started his usual slanging match, "I'm going, you can see L", "you can spend time with L", "he's the one you want to see, not me", "Shall I get him for you?", "Why do you not want to see L". I put up with most of this, controlling my temper & ignoring most of his verbal attacks. I challenged Cujo. "I want to speak to Elekid" (most people would've looked at me saying I'm here, what sort of question is that", not Cujo however "Elekid, he's out there, I'll just get him for you". The arguement got worse, he was accusing me of doing things I hadn't done, at pool. I tried L's suggestion of reverse psycology, it didn't work too well. He then started threatening me, wanting a fight. I just lay on my bed closed my eyes & ignored him. He didn't like it. At some point I got up, he wanted to go home, he wanted to leave & I was happy to let him. He sat down for a moment, said I could cuddle him, it was still Cujo, not Elekid & he shrugged me off after a few secs (El wouldn't do this). More arguing, then he threatened to start damaging stuff in my room. He still wanted to fight, but unfortuantely I was in the mood too. I was praying for this spirit or demon to leave him, it had a unexpected consequence. I got up, responding to his call to fight, he backed away. I lost it, I pinned him to the wall, by the shoulders, I even briefly grabbed him by the neck I think. "You wanna go, well go, I want you out of my room NOW". I thumped the door, a good 12 inches away from his head. He refused, I screamed at him, "your a f-king psycopath", his mood didn't lessen up, but he collapsed on the floor. (A panic attack I was later told by L.) I went back to my bed, "El why do you have to do this to me all the time, why do you always push me to my limits." - "I'm phoning my mum to tell her what you've done." (His battery died.) He then went to my window, wanting to jump out of it. I let him try, he couldn't open it. Things calmed down, my flatmate asked if "I" was okay, I said no. He was getting anxious, "my train goes at 11:15, are you coming with me or what" he said. I agreed. He left the room, while I releaved myself. I found him outside trying to jump off the 2nd floor. I pulled him back & we carried n walking. In an empty car-park, I challenged him "When your like this, do you see me as your real Dad the one who abandoned you." He screamed at me "Don't you dare saying anything about my family." I walked away at his request. He screamed again & raced after me to fight. I stopped him with a word of authority, dead in his tracks "You've got a train to catch, come on." He calmed himself & we walked. On the way back he listened to me & calmly argued how scared he'd felt, about his abduction, about this man who'd abused him & how it brough back memories, when he was alone with me. I explained lovingly that I wasn't like that man, I cared about him & all this guy wanted was to please himself, with no care for El what so ever. Maybe he saw this man in me, not his Dad. After stopping over a bridge, he wanted to die again, I again stopped him & we continued. I continued talking my theories about his actions, knowing he wasn't in control of his mind or body & that this thing (Cujo), knows how much we love each other & wants to destroy it, by putting thoughts & words into his head. He stopped me a few mins away from the station. He threw his arms around me again & sobbed. He felt he didn't know what was happening to him. He couldn't control the thing inside him. He really needs help, maybe only Eve can free him, from this demon. I led him to the train. Saw him wave. I left him for a while. I then went uo to check on him. He was shivering, laying down on the seat. Damn, I couldn't leave him like this. I got on with him & kept him company. "I'll ask my mum if I can sleep over on Tuesday, to make up for tonight." I took the suggestion with a pinch of salt & agreed with him. After Elekid ran home, I phoned Pichu to get him to speak to him. Friday - I wasn't expecting to see either of them today, let alone a happy voice message, asking where I was. I found them in the arcade on camp. They were both happy to see me, but calm. Pichu didn't get to speak to him and El hadn't told anyone what happened. None of them borrowed off me, but things were calmer, more subdued. I did go back with El to home-town & on the train back, he was threatened by one of his so-called mates, the small 16yo from camp. El offered little resistance neither could he fight back more than a threatening look. I didn't interviene, wanting El to fight this one alone. It didn't get serious, but I worried about this kid's true intentions. El reported the boy to the guard, but he'd already ran off. Later in the evening, they both agreed to meet me again today & we'll see how things go. P recons that El will be more cautious about allowing Cujo to arise again, having bitten off more than he could chew last time! Halo |
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