Testing friendship
Submitted by Halo on 2002-11-11 05:40:50, Monday
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Opening this I should note, that for whatever reason, coincidence or God-incident, upon leaving where I post my messages on Saturday, I run into El, coming up the road. Why did this happen, I don't know. He'd been sent home from work, sick, he said he'd been chucking all night & this morning. He doesn't have to go back to work until next Friday (they do this so that if a person is really ill, they get the infection out of their system, if their lying, it will be a deterant, as they don't get paid for time off - except for docs letter etc). We ate, met up with Pichu & Brock as usual, during the day. They didn't lean on me for money for machines today, I bought food & loaned money to El to buy a present for his sister (lives with real Dad) & to Brock to pay back his little brother (11yo, blonde, mad about me, I've been told, we've only met once). This is how things went. After initially refusing money requests they left me alone. The last was El saying "So are you going to lend him the money or not" - I answered NO & El too left me. To my surprise they came back. Upon reading several things, I decided to test each of them individually. This was after going through my fears with Pichu about the incident with El the other day. I asked all of them, if their friendship with me was just for the money, or for my company. They all drew inconclusive answers & to be honest I can't decide yet. Will need more time. Before I gave Brock any money, I wanted to test him, to see if he could trust me to hold it for him until he needed to leave us. He wanted to show me however that he could hold it himself without spending it, he did so as far as I could tell, but not without using the machines to spend & win it back (sigh). Elekid was sincere about his money request, I found out this was not a bluff & his sisters birthday really was yesterday, Pichu didn't even know that he'd asked me for money. Again at the ATM, El rested his head on my shoulders as he does, "Thanks Dad" he says. Pichu was the odd one out today, he had money of his own & held onto it, he didn't ask me for anything, but spent time with me alone as well. It did seem for a time that Brock & El would follow us everywhere, Pichu noticed this & wanted us to test his theory. El did catch me by surprise, when 120lb of boy jumped onto my back at speed, I caught him & carried him for a few steps, before letting him down again (he likes being carried this way sometimes & carried in my arms (like picking up the missus & carrying her off to bed or over the threshhold, when married). Eventually we parted from El & Brock & proceeded to work. We checked the soccor scores, before entering the canteen. Pichu got some sweet comments from female staff members, who thought he was cute & "ahhh, how old are you". He seems to woo the women as well as the occasional 30yo bl. I ate dinner (he didn't want anything despite my requests to share), then returned to see the final scores. During my break, I again met up with him at his request, he amassed more winnings from various machines & walked away!!!! Telling & showing me his will power & determination to hold onto money & not spend it wastefully. He also shared his break-food with me, which was touching, before we parted again. He did pop in & out to say hello, telling me where he was going, as they were sending him to work in various places during the night. I also told Pichu about the film that L is directing. He seems to have agreed to play a part first offered to Elekid, since a co-star reported to L that he seems to already think he's in the film!!!! He also seems to fit into the role well, by his appearance & size, which match the criteria required. Maybe he can convince Elekid that "L" is not the enemy! Sunday was a day of reflection, very busy, I had soccor, can't provide to many details, but it was an exciting game with an unexpected ending. Some comments came out last night & the night before that sort of cleared a few things up. El's Dad only left 4 years ago & has custody of his sister. They still see each other on occasions. The assult on El also occured about 4 years ago, the paedo involved was sent to prison for his crimes. (Meaning that I have to tread very carefully, with his emotions.) What we have been working on, is him overcoming his fears, obviously he's comfortable alone with me sometimes & lets me treat his muscle strains, but he also gets uncomfortable with his body's reactions, which bring back bad memories, but again I have never done anything without his concent, I must add. He needs time to trust me, I can't force that on him. He is struggling with these emotions & P thinks it's important to show him that I'm not the same as the man who attacked him. I think he knows, judging by the trust he's shown me alone, but he still has "mental attacks" where he sees me as that man in the room with him, or with him when were out together. So I may have been wrong to accuse his real Dad of the reasons behind his anger towards me. Only time & God's everlasting love can heal these situations. Halo |
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