I've often thought the same thing, that God put this love of boys in me to be used for His glory, but Satan does his best to pervert it. I don't know if this is true, but it sure feels like it. Part of what I feel for boys is wholesome and good and feels God inspired. But there is also a part that is selfish and perverse. But the thing to remember is that although we can't control what we desire, we CAN control what we do. So I believe God expects us to use the love we have for boys but restrain the sexual desire. Not always an easy thing to do. But I'm constantly reminded of the verses where God refuses to remove Paul's "thorn" where He says "My grace is sufficient." I believe God's grace is sufficient for us too. Dakota |