Haha, well, maybe I am more BL than I thought. Last night, I dreamt of Haley Joel Osment. I was sitting on a couch with him and he put his arm around me. He was my good friend, and it made me feel so awesome. I don't have friends right now and having a friend like that was incredible. I woke up and fell back asleep. Now I was sitting alone watching a movie with him in it. I felt this deep hole in my stomach... the kind I normally only feel when awake. He had been my friend, but now it could never, ever be. I just watched his eyes because I couldn't do anything else. When I woke up, I was kinda shocked that it was a dream. It had seemed so real, and was an oddly normal thing to dream about. Anyway, I'm not sure if it meant anything, but I thought I'd come here and say that, while I am different in some ways, I have that part of me too. Maybe not sexual, but neither is my AFL. Thanks Nate so much! Bless you too and all the peeps here. :) I'll see you all on the flip side. It's nice that there is a forum where that really means something. :) |