Hi Nate, thanx for commenting. It's just that I haven't had a really open deep conversation for some time. My best friend moved away, I don't often see him, and there's just one other here to discuss intimous topics like me being a BL. My conversation with god has lowered to a point where I only pray if it's my part to do some "moderation" at the service. I'm quite occupied in several church activities from choirs to prison ministry and now I have the feeling I'm not righteous. How can I tell somebody of the love of god if I don't feel it and perhaps don't want to feel it? Greetinx, GiveLove |