Good questions
Submitted by Drifter on 2003-03-21 08:46:06, Friday
In reply to realizing you are a boylover submitted by love4life on 2003-03-20 17:58:34, Thursday
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Is anyone willing to share your story of when and how you realized that you were or are a boylover?? My own past is muddled and the more I think about it the more I realize that for a large period of time I hid these feelings from myself completely. I dont know if youve ever watched the show "The Wonder Years" with Fred Savage. At the beginning of that show there is a short description of opening your eyes and realizing the beauty thats been all around you all along (in that show he's reffering to girls of course). Thats kinda how it hit me. We had gone home for the summer after 7th grade and had grown during that time. We all returned for 8th grade taller and older looking. That's when I was struck by the sight of all the new kids, all the little 7th graders all around me. They were so gorgeous, I spent much of my time at school admiring their beauty, daydreaming about them, and befriending them. At some point I thought that this is how people turn gay and that is what I would become. But then I realized that it was far worse. I dont wanna write my entire biography here, so Ill wrap this up by saying it took years of emotional pain and depression before I finally came to terms with who and what I was. IF still are one: are you trying to change or are you comfortable as you are? I am comfortable. If God wants to change me he knows that he is more than welcome to do so. I cant rely on that remote possibility as my basis for happiness though. Is it ok to be a boylover? of course |
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