Re: Considering myself warned...
Submitted by Jeremy on February 10 1999 at 12:32:30
In reply to Considering myself warned... Submitted by Scott on February 09 1999 at 07:21:37
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Hey Scott, I'm identifying a little with what you're talking about I think. I'm at a point in my life (graduating college in the spring) where my future is uncertain, and I've prayed about what God wants from my life. I've been challenged lately with thoughts that perhaps God wants me to get involved with ministry and bring His love to boylovers and pedophiles alike. The implication of that idea is that I'd come clean and 'out myself' to all so that the truth could be told and my story would have effect on the boylovers who would hear it. What a gift that would have been for me growing up! Just to identify my desires with something positive. The problem that keeps cropping up for me with this scenerio is related to FOD's post above yours on the question of God's will towards homosexual feelings. Of course, we have nothing to fear if we are doing God's work, yet the homosexuality question is just that for me-- a question. I do not yet know for certain whether I can call myself a boylover (resigned to the fact that I won't 'change') and be acting within God's will. There are many honest and Faithful people who would maintain that Jesus will change a homosexual who repents. That is where I'm stuck. My life over the last few years has been one long bumbling act of repentence, and as this process of serving the Lord has indeed changed many of my fallen characteristics, my love for boys in the 'homosexual manner' has not be affected. Yet, I can't rule it out completely, I am a young Christian. And since I don't know for sure that I would be acting within the Man's will if I pursued that vision of ministry I described above, I don't know for sure that I would have God's protection, or be within his graces. Sorry to babble, I kind of needed to stumble through this... thanks, and let me know what you think. -Jeremy |