Thank you all! ; more thoughts
Submitted by KIDCODY on February 19 1999 at 01:59:57
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Hello everyone again, Many thanks for the many responses. They have been most inspirational. As far as what to do I guess i was hoping for more advice, but knew more advice was not attainable. I have thought of the "Running" method, and quite honestly think anyone in my position would. That is fine to say, many people have to me. More have said to just put up with the 9 yrs and the 11 yrs probation. (only 1 non-bl has adviced me of the other option) Unfortunately going that route will mean i can have no contact with anyone under 18 for 20 years. It is sad, very sad. I have no friends as far as in the real world i mean.. and certainly if i went to someone's place for a bit that was a friend in the "non=net" community i would be obviously found. I mean i know everything has a purpose from GOD. I also know that GOD does everything for a reason. But i guess my whole problem with "finding that meaning" has always been interpretting the message. What i mean is like with my experience, how do i know what is wanted of me? Is this God's way of saying i have done wrong and i need years of no minors and time in prison, or if I when i am being judged by our father and creator will he say something to the effect of "My son, i gave you those months out on bail to be prepared and leave your life so that you could start over and make your Father proud"? I mean i don't know, it reminds me of a kinda "joke" i heard once (I will put it at the end of this letter if anyone cares to read it) though it holds much truth in the "ways God works". Well everyone's comments are appreciated and i love hearing everyone's input. I certainly can't agree with the "Don't PRAY, RUN" thought because if i was to run I would have to pray daily. God bless you all, i look forward to any more comments, suggestions or web pages which may have info to help me. You are all in my prayers, KIDCODY "boy_photo@hotmail.com" ========================================================================== This is the "joke" (as best as i can remember and type it) that i referred to in this post, skip if you like. ========================================================================== A large rain store hits a city. The rain continues and continues until a flash flood warning is issued. The city is quickly evacuated and the town workers scurry the town looking for any people remaining. Eventually they come upon a husband and wife in a 3rd story apartment building. "Sir, you and your wife must get in this boat! Can't you see the water level has already rose over the 1st floor!?" The man replies, "We believe in our Lord, he will save us". The people in the boat go on and eventually come upon the husband and wife again during their rounds. "Sir you and wife really must come now! Grab a few things and get into the boat!" The man simply replies again, "We believe in our Lord, he will save us". Well the water continues to rise and finally forces the man and women to the roof of their apartment. A helicopter comes and the person in it shouts to them, "This is your last chance! Hurry and I will bring you to the shelter!" Once again the man just hugs and his wife, smiles, and shouts back, "We believe in our Lord, he will save us". Well the water level continues to rise and the man and women drown. As they walk through the gates and approach their Lord, the man asks the Lord, "Lord! Why on why did we die? We continuously had faith in you and yet me died! Why oh why?" The Lord looks at the man and women and replies, "Oh sir, I sent you a boat and you turned it down, I sent you another boat and you turned it down. I even set a helicopter and you turned it down!" (well ok, a little unrealistic perhaps, but just summarizes how a "Situation" can be looked at two ways and that is what i mean i don't know how to interpret mine. I mean almost always in a case like this i would already be in jail and not out on bail for so long.) |