FOD - Thanks for the continued encouragement. There are really scores of versus in the Gospels where Jesus talks about leaving ones family, about having to hate ones family (my minister explained that you don't literally hate them but that you must be willing to temporarily turn from them to turn to Jesus), about being persecuted, etc. This knowledge has certainly been of consolation to me. I know that someday they will come back to me when they see how my life has changed for the better. My minister believes that people no longer speak in tongues. Interesting that some churches believe that it still happens and I guess it is comforting to know that not every church agrees on every issue. I don't want to justify masterbation for myself because I believe that it was damaging to me in the excess that it occurred. On the other hand, I don't want to feel hopeless because I need some release a couple of times a week. You are not alone. Ben |